Whole Again

Robbie is home and I couldn't be happier.

I drove to pick him up at Manchester Airport (around 3 hours from here) on Monday.  When I was 20 minutes away Rob called to tell me that his flight from Newark, which was due to leave at 9:30pm, was actually not leaving until 11:30pm for absolutely no reason at all.  All I can say is thank the lord for iPads and 30 Rock on Netflix, because or else I would've spent my four-hour wait walking back and forth across the airport and watching TSA agents laze around like there's no tomorrow.

Pictured above: a face that proves how much Tina Fey Liz Lemon and I have in common.

Anyway Rob arrived and as goofy as it sounds, I had a big-ass grin plastered on my face from the moment I saw him come down the stairs until we arrived home.  The three-hour drive went by so quickly because we spent the entire time laughing and catching up again.  I'm not sure how I didn't pass out but we made it home at around 4:30am and snuggled like crazy...at least until my husband got too warm and banished me to my side of our double bed.


I know you guys, he was only gone for like five days.  But we agreed that out of all the times we've been apart since he got out of the Army, this felt the most like an Army separation.  He had a great time at Fire Camp (and totally kicked ass, naturally) but the atmosphere and the activity had him feeling like he was in Basic again.  I could tell that he was really happy to be home.

He was even happier when I brought Cypress home from the kennel today, though maybe not as excited as Cypress was.

Rob's trip to Fire Camp made me feel a little nervous about what's coming for us this fire season.  He'll be called out for indeterminate amounts of time with minimal to no cell reception and chances are, I'll be spending a fair amount of the summer alone.  It's nothing like the Army, or a deployment, but after close to 4 years of seeing each other most days, I know it'll be a relearning process. I'm having a lot of conflicting feelings about it and I've been trying to sort it all out.  I'm going to need to relearn how to be alone, and how to be happy while being alone even when I'm missing my other half. 

But I don't have to think about that for awhile.  So I'm just going to enjoy the fact that my little family is physically whole again, at least for now.

I know I do this a lot, but I want to apologize for the lack of real posts lately.  It's been a lot of "here's what we're doing, isn't that fun?" Also, because I'm feeling anxious, I apologize for apologizing.  And so on.

I hope you are all having a great week so far!